“you’re toxic”

the one that got away i feel as though my soul has been sucked out of my being .. with every letter and every space of your resignation a piece of myself left my being something so quick something so pure something so amazing i guess wasn’t as strong as we thought it would be and here i am standing in the pool of my failures and all i can do is look back at the amazing life we left behind before we even got the chance everything i touch turns to gold , then coal my intentions are pure but satan manipulates actions in a room of my own silence which diffuses into the mouths of my peers , my soul screams, my mind yells and with every hour that passes, my heart sinks . my heart breaks at the realization that you were the one that got away i fail to understand how God has a better plan some being better than your own i saw this coming as i always do but this time , i thought .. (as i always think) a part of me feels i should rather change my name to Hermit and keep to myself i’m afraid my artistic fingers might make a painting on a plain canvas with some one the colour of all the colours in a brick tube only to have that fresh painting smudged , dropped in a mud of failures and stepped on . there’s no turning back .. as definite as my heartbeat it’s over .