i should’ve listened . i should’ve listened when my mom said stay away from boys . i should’ve listened . i should’ve guarded my heart ... i should’ve known that she wanted to preserve the romanticist i am ..right from the start .. to keep those dreams guarded . instead i’ve wasted all the pure amazing love i could’ve given that One .. i always seem to mistake my lesson for a soulmate . (but they are soulmates .. destined for you to meet , but not destined to stay , i guess .) now that One seems like a bleak shadow ..that i can never keep up with . the idea haunts me, the reality feels nonexistent ..its just an idea don’t you dare fall in love with me ! don’t do it . don’t tell me you love me . it’ll fade soon after . let’s keep the journey a surprise and our feelings it’s map . please ? i don’t want this to fade like the rest .. i’m begging you ? just show me , instead ? i’m not used to a forever love ..i’m used to the title , but not the deliverance...be patient if i run . sometimes i don’t know what’s best for myself ..so i run away from what seems too good to be true . please .. please don’t stop secretly loving me? please don’t hate me .. please , please just see me through ..i promise , i have so much to offer .. even if it doesn’t look like it .. i have the best intentions at heart . please , don’t talk about future ideals ..
(too much floating hope to hang onto ) just look me in the eyes and say nothing verbally , and everything soully .. that’s all .
i don’t want to hear how you’re different from the others ..you have nothing to prove . just stay .. please .. PLEASE . please just stay with me .
