i’m walking down a hall of darkness voices echo around me they aim at my heart but i used my mind to propel them thinking they’re gone not realizing they only just bounce off walls and hit hard when i’m not looking i continue walking not realizing that by now 10 000 words (unsaid, according to me; shouted, according to the universe) have penetrated into my soul my feet grow heavier my heart becomes a heavy lake my mind becomes a storm my eyes become taps but i continue walking speaking words of light that shoot out of my mouth but hug the darkness hold hands with the dark make love to the dark these lightening words pull muscles around my mouth to form an odd shape a “smile” to fool myself that everything is okay suddenly jokes and laughter sometimes sass escape me it’s my soul trying to escape i’m walking and my knees begin to give in my face is soaked my shoulders now carry an unknown weight my clothes are stained with the letters that seem so innocent as individuals but turn out to be sinister in an ensemble by my inner circle outer circle ? and every one outside the circle i look ahead .. continue walking feet being dragged i pretend i’m not in pain it’s just a bad day it’s just a bad day “you’re toxic” blackout .
